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Destruction, Thy Name is MineNo matter what I say  No matter how I try  I can’t help but want  To be really high   
To remember what it’s like  To be carefree  Not a worry in the world  Even if it’s temporary   
But I know in my heart  I’m taking great risk  Eventually, my luck will end  And boy, will they be pissed   
When they discover the truth  The secrets and the lies  Disappointment and pain  They’ll wonder why   
After all that I know  And all that I’ve seen  Why I would still do this  And be a stupid teen   
An Destruction, Thy Name is Mine
by ~Kurisutaru-Kitsune
His Name is AddictionIt always seems so easy  You hear it all the time  “Dude, just quit!”  “Can’t you see what it does to you?”  “I hate how you act on that shit”  “It’s not that hard! Just stop it!”  Why don’t I?  Why can’t I just stop?   
I ask myself that every day  And every day,  I try.   
Yet there’s still this  Aching  Throbbing  Shrill  Little  Voice  That belongs to such a  
Twisted  Demented  Disgusting  Vile  Little  Creature   
Every time I try to stop & His Name is Addiction
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Saved AgainA suicide  The perfect death  A bottle of pills  A glittering blade   
Take the pills  To feel no pain  Cut the skin  Destroy the vein   
Black surrounds  A tiny light  Take a puff of cigarette  It doesn’t matter  I’m dead anyway   
It won’t work  I can feel it   
Pain in my gut  Gagging starts  They yank out a tube  Black comes out   
The charcoal taste  The cigarette aftertaste  The nasty color  The disgusting feeling   
I look at myself  More stitches  I’m a bloody me Saved Again
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Do You Know?Do you know what its like?  To look at your veins  And only want to slice  Them open?   
Do you know what its like?  To look at your scars  And wish you could  Make more?   
Do you know what its like?  To feel guilt from  Every bite of food  You eat?   
Do you know what its like?  To wish you could wear  That beautiful dress without  The scars or your bones  Showing?   
Do you know what its like?  To wish for the courage  To finally end it all?   
Do you know what its like?  To have your mother  Check your ski Do You Know?
by ~Kurisutaru-Kitsune
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A Year...

Thu Apr 2, 2009, 8:27 AM
  • Mood: Insecure
  • Listening to: Some sad insturmental song
  • Drinking: Propel
It'll be a year tomorrow since I last posted any work.
That almost makes me sad, yet at the same time, I know that my art was fueled by my depression. Sadly, I have not found another muse since I started getting successfully treated. I don't remember how long I've been seeing my newest therapist, but she is a great example of why I want to become a psychologist.

I graduate in just over a month.
May 17th.
Its hard to see it as anything more than never having to enter this hell hole of a school again.
Yet, there are so many people I will be leaving; so many memories that'll be left behind.

I'm staying in town for college. Planning to go to Johnson County Community College.
Honestly, I'm excited.
I've taken classes there before, and I love it. The people, the teachers, everything. Because nobody gives a shit about you. Because no one cares what you wear, who you are, who you're dating, etc. I can be myself without having the school riding my ass about it. I can wear my chains and my spikes. I can be me again. Instead of being who the school says I have to be.

Wow.
I'm depressing myself.
Go me. I can take a subject that I am overly excited about and actually depress myself with it.

~Kit

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  • Current Residence: Some dark abyss where I'm slowly destroying myself
  • Interests: Anything I can play while still watching TV.
  • Favourite movie: Constintine
  • Favourite genre of music: Rock, R&B, a little country, stuff like that
  • Favourite artist: Wouldn't you like to know. ^_~
  • Favourite poet or writer: Edger Allen Poe
  • Favourite photographer: ^_^
  • MP3 player of choice: Realplayer
  • Shell of choice: swirl
  • Wallpaper of choice: Something not wall colored.
  • Skin of choice: Um...furry?
  • Favourite game: Need for Speed: Carbon
  • Favourite cartoon character: Bakura
  • Personal Quote: I don't know if anyone will ever understand how much it hurts to be me.
  • Tools of the Trade: Mainly pencils and a working computer

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*iron-gibbet Oct 3, 2009, 7:25:14 PM
Thank you kindly for the watch.

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THE IRON-GIBBET

"And what is in a branch? There's a gibbet! That is why I call my forest the torture chamber!"
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Mood: Adoration ~lonelynightmares Jul 18, 2009, 2:52:39 PM
Thanks for the fav on my "I Am More" stamp! :hug:

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:ohnoes: Houses made of houses within houses made of time.
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~FlyingFoxes Feb 14, 2009, 6:04:50 PM
Yeahs cuzzz <33 i now know your da MUHAHAHAHA!!!!! *cough cough* =}
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~Kurisutaru-Kitsune Feb 16, 2009, 5:28:44 PM
OMG!! *faints*

--
There’s only now, there’s only here.
Give in to love or live in fear
No other path, no other way
No day but today. - RENT
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Live today as if you'll die tomorrow,
But dream as though you'll live forever. - Ebba
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~FlyingFoxes Feb 17, 2009, 6:13:59 PM
*pokes de fainted Cousin*

You dont care if i say your name on here or anything? or you have a secret nick name? lol
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~Kurisutaru-Kitsune Feb 18, 2009, 4:52:47 AM
I go by Kit, but I don't really care anymore. It's not like many people on here are gonna stalk me and kill me or anything. :laugh:

--
There’s only now, there’s only here.
Give in to love or live in fear
No other path, no other way
No day but today. - RENT
---
Live today as if you'll die tomorrow,
But dream as though you'll live forever. - Ebba
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~FlyingFoxes Feb 18, 2009, 2:48:16 PM
Lol oh ok ill just call you that then =}
You never know lol i could be a stalker =K
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~SunnyShirubi Oct 21, 2008, 5:33:49 AM
Thanks for the fav :D

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:weed:
Cross my heart, Smack me dead, Stick a lobster on my head.
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~Nyuuxoxo Oct 20, 2008, 6:16:32 PM
Ello Love<3 :D

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No, you'll never be alone
When darkness comes I'll light the night with stars
Hear my whispers in the dark
No, you'll never be alone
When darkness comes you know I'm never far
Hear the whispers in the dark
Whispers in the dark
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~Kurisutaru-Kitsune Oct 21, 2008, 3:39:58 AM
'Ey girl, what's shakin? Ya know, aside from the bed...

--
There’s only now, there’s only here.
Give in to love or live in fear
No other path, no other way
No day but today. - RENT
---
Live today as if you'll die tomorrow,
But dream as though you'll live forever. - Ebba
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