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A lot has happened since I last posted or updated on here, so I'll try to keep things fairly simple.
HEALTH
My health has taken a turn for the worse.
I have two vertebrae in my lower lumbar that are degrading. I've spoke with a surgeon and surgery is not ideal for someone like me. (25, smoker, have arthritis, fibro, depression, and anxiety.) He fears I would be left in more pain than before and has prescribed me 6 weeks of physical therapy to start me into more regular exercise. I'm not excited about this, but I am terribly out of shape, and my back pain has only made that worse.
I started seeing a new therapist in December, and I really like him. I need to start scheduling appointments again (stopped because of back pain) but I'm started on the right track to getting my depression and anxiety under control.
I wish I could say I'm doing better mentally, but being in so much pain and being in a non-functioning state have made things much worse. I break down over the littlest thing, but know that it's all related to my physical state. Once I'm back to where I was physically, I can begin working towards a healthier mental state.
PERSONAL LIFE
For those who don't know, I got married back in September!
My husband and I had been engaged for a little over 2 years, and decided that for my health (aka him being able to talk to doctors, receive calls, and pick up meds for me) we should get married. Trust me, we didn't rush this, we put a lot of thought into it.
The wedding was nice, quite a few of our close friends got to be there, as well as my own parents, who flew in from out of state. Not everything was perfect, but a lot of things went really well, and I got to see people I hadn't seen in years, so that made me really happy.
ART
My art and writing have slowed to less than a crawl. I'm still working on stories on occasion, but I hardly draw anymore, something I'm hoping to pick back up. I hope to have the first few chapters of Adrian's story posted here by the next update, though I have no deadline set due to my health.
If anyone needs to contact me, you can find me over on Tumblr, where I spend most of my days. I'm also spending much more time on Skype, so if you PM me, I just might give you my Skype name.
HEALTH
My health has taken a turn for the worse.
I have two vertebrae in my lower lumbar that are degrading. I've spoke with a surgeon and surgery is not ideal for someone like me. (25, smoker, have arthritis, fibro, depression, and anxiety.) He fears I would be left in more pain than before and has prescribed me 6 weeks of physical therapy to start me into more regular exercise. I'm not excited about this, but I am terribly out of shape, and my back pain has only made that worse.
I started seeing a new therapist in December, and I really like him. I need to start scheduling appointments again (stopped because of back pain) but I'm started on the right track to getting my depression and anxiety under control.
I wish I could say I'm doing better mentally, but being in so much pain and being in a non-functioning state have made things much worse. I break down over the littlest thing, but know that it's all related to my physical state. Once I'm back to where I was physically, I can begin working towards a healthier mental state.
PERSONAL LIFE
For those who don't know, I got married back in September!
My husband and I had been engaged for a little over 2 years, and decided that for my health (aka him being able to talk to doctors, receive calls, and pick up meds for me) we should get married. Trust me, we didn't rush this, we put a lot of thought into it.
The wedding was nice, quite a few of our close friends got to be there, as well as my own parents, who flew in from out of state. Not everything was perfect, but a lot of things went really well, and I got to see people I hadn't seen in years, so that made me really happy.
ART
My art and writing have slowed to less than a crawl. I'm still working on stories on occasion, but I hardly draw anymore, something I'm hoping to pick back up. I hope to have the first few chapters of Adrian's story posted here by the next update, though I have no deadline set due to my health.
If anyone needs to contact me, you can find me over on Tumblr, where I spend most of my days. I'm also spending much more time on Skype, so if you PM me, I just might give you my Skype name.
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Antisocial, Shy, and Gothic.
EMO
[x] I cry a lot.
[ ] I go to local shows.
[ ] I wear black everyday.
[x] I write sad poetry.
[ ] I play an acoustic guitar.
[ ] My favorite bands include: Fall Out Boy, My Chemical Romance, or Panic! at the Disco.
[x] I think about suicide or death often.
[x] People have told me to cheer up.
[ ] I cry when I see dead animals.
[ ] My myspace/Facebook pics are black or white or angled.
[ ] I wear many band shirts.
[x] No one understands me.
[x] I don't talk too often.
[x] I look down when I walk.
[ ] I wear black eyeliner.
[ ] I have an ex I still cry over.
[ ] My hair is black
[ ] My hair covers
Would you miss me?
Forgive me for this, but after the day I've had, I truly must know...
Who would miss me if I died?
Would you care that I was gone?
Would I be remembered for the good I tried to do?
Or forgotten for being unable to?
Am I no more than a broken husk?
To be used and taken advantage of?
I know the depression has set in, but after being called
An asshole
A cunt
And unwilling to accept reality
I don't know where I stand, and am starting to question who I am...
(I will only elaborate if asked. Especially since I highly doubt anyone will actually comment on this...)
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